Jennette McCurdy, best known for her role in ICarly is revealingly new abuse She had to persevere as a child actress.
In a New York Times The profile published Wednesday, in which she is promoting her new memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died, reports that McCurdy writes in her book that she was once in a bikini during a Nickelodeon fitting by an (unnamed) intimidating character was photographed, who also encouraged her to drink alcohol. McCurdy was a teenager when she worked at the broadcaster.
It’s unclear if her mother, Debra – who died of breast cancer in 2013 – was present at that particular incident, but according to the excerpts paraphrased by the Times, she likely would not have intervened on her child’s behalf.
Apparently she had taught her daughter that such cases were the price of fame.
“Everyone wants what you have,” McCurdy recalled, as her mother had told her.
That wasn’t the only abuse McCurdy endured on Nickelodeon. She also wrote that she assumed she would get her own “iCarly” spinoff on the network, but ended up landing a co-star slot on “Sam & Cat,” which paired her with future pop music sensation Ariana Big.
According to the Times profile, McCurdy wrote that Nickelodeon prevented her from pursuing other career opportunities while she was on Sam & Cat. But that rule didn’t apply to Grande.
“What finally crushed me was when Ariana came whistling in with excitement because she had spent the previous night playing charades at Tom Hanks’ house,” McCurdy recalls in the memoir. “That was the moment I broke.” The actor further claims that after Sam & Cat was canceled in 2014, she turned down a $300,000 offer not to speak publicly about her time on Nickelodeon. (The network declined to comment to the Times.)
McCurdy says in her memoir that her pursuit of acting was solely to please her mother. Debra (whose own parents had not wanted her to pursue acting) had her audition for roles at the age of six. Debra appeared to exhibit manipulative behavior when her daughter didn’t book a job.
In an excerpt from her memoirs, edited by weekly entertainment, McCurdy recalls sitting in a booster seat in her mother’s car after not booking a job as a child because she couldn’t cry on command during the audition.
Writing about the mixed feelings she felt when she didn’t book the job, McCurdy tried to tell her mother she didn’t want to act anymore because it made her “uncomfortable.”
McCurdy described her mother’s face in response to the fact that she looked “like she just ate a lemon. It distorts in a way that scares me.”
“‘You can’t stop!’ she sobs. “That was our chance! That was ouuuur chaaaaance!'” McCurdy wrote.
Her mother then slammed her hand on “the steering wheel and accidentally hit the horn. Mascara runs down her cheeks… Her hysteria scares me and demands attention.”
McCurdy explains that she tried to defuse the situation by telling her mother, “Whatever,” and suggesting that they listen to a song her mother liked. McCurdy said that as soon as the song started playing, her mother “dizzily” started singing along, “her mood changed.”
McCurdy has also been open in the past about how her mother sexually abused her. In an interview with People last year, McCurdy told the outlet that Debra “insisted on doing vaginal and breast exams” until she was 17 and “never let her shower alone.”
“It was just the distance from her that allowed me to heal,” McCurdy told People at the time.
McCurdy’s memoir, I’m Glad My Mom Died, will be available August 9.